So, like, back in July or whateva, I was kinda sad that I wasn't in school anymore because I think I thought I would miss it. Turns out, I really don't. Sometimes, on a weekday, I think about school, and I'm really not sad that I'm not there, especially when said school is in damn Fort Collins. It kinda makes me giggle about the poor saps who are still at school, and I feel kinda bad for them. I miss exactly one person and think about two others and would probably like to see them again someday, and I miss the opportunity to learn Russian (totally not missing the class!), but really, other than that, I'm digging sitting around and doing whatever I want whenever I want with basically no responsibilities. Granted, someday I am going to have to get a job and eventually I am going to have to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life (aside from winning the lottery and being a wandering jack-of-all-trades), but for now, I'm just really trying to enjoy doing nothing. It's everything I always I thought it could be.

So even though I just graduated in May after four years of pretty hating the whole college thing, I kinda wanna go back and do it all over. Well, not all of it. I'm not really feelin' this whole English degree, cuz I like don't want to be a writer and stuff, even though I'm really good at the whole mechanics aspect. I've been seriously considering being an environmental lawyer and while I could do with the English, I feel like I need a more science-y background and would like to go to school for marine biology, which is what I started out doing in the first place. But then all that math and chemistry seemed so daunting, so I switched majors and thought it was a really good plan until about a month after I graduated and discovered that I really hate writing and doing it non-stop for the last four years made me hate it even more. Plus, it's driving me crazy sitting around doing nothing all summer and knowing that eventually I'll have to get some 9 to 5 job as a drone in some company full of corporate bullshit. School makes me feel smart, and I like that. Science makes me feel even smarter, and I think I really need to feel smart and be challenged or that loony bin is going to be in my very near future. The only problem is that I'm poor. So, hmmm. At least I finally get to use my smart Scully icon. Yea!